Today...

I feel confused. I feel suffocated. I feel trapped.

Psalm 56:8, “You know how troubled I am; you have kept a record of my tears” (GNT).

Sometimes ashamed, wishing that I could be more "big-hearted". More "open minded". But it's just not that easy. 

Yet, the Bible says nothing in creation is hidden from God (Psalm 147:5). And that it doesn't surprise him. His love for me does not change. 

Because He knows, and He understands, I “Give all my worries and cares to God, for he cares about what happens to me” (1 Peter 5:7 NLT).

Amen.

(God knows what I'm going through, and He has prepared this devotional by Rick Warren for me to read.. Rick Warren is the author of Purpose Driven Life and also the one who prayed during President Obama's inauguration ceremony)

Lifted Me High Again

Listening to Lifted Me High Again, from the album For This Cause by Hillsong (yes, ancient) brings me bck to my JC days, when I used to attend City Harvest. Can vividly remember the atmosphere, the trumpet players (distinctly!), and of course, am then reminded of how God brought me through my 'A' Level days. It was a true demonstration of "impossible is nothing". Exactly what I need to know, cos at this very moment, I'm not as productive as I would've liked myself to be.. Cos for the past 4 hours, I've only covered Asthma. The good thing is. I'm still not stressed :P because He has just lifted me high again :)

iPhone3G

Why is Apple so amazing??



i think Steve Jobs is brilliant! simply brilliant!! which makes God simply awesome!! after all, it is HE who gives us the creative mind. *sigh* my God is so awesome. can i have an iPhone now? pls...? hehe.. kidding la. i don't need it. but i feel compelled to advertise it although i'm not getting paid cos it's so cooL!

i'm just thinking, if only practically we as Christians can do this just as effectively with the greatest gift that we have - Jesus! i'll do it. i'll do it. such good news! why should i keep it to myself??

2nd week of my hols!! so many things happened. i've got so many things to tell, but it's all a jumble in my head. but God is good. so good. I LOVE HIM!!!! :) will be bck with a decent post sooN! :)

x

random thoughts after awaking from a nap

finally, we had the chance to meet up with the juniors :) it's been one year already??!! we're seniors already??!! ahh, it seems like just yesterday, when we first set foot in Adelaide.. what an amazing journey (by that, i don't mean easy, it was such a journey of exponential growth). i believe the juniors will feel that way too! welcome to adelaide, guys :)

so it was lunch @ ding hao's.. which seemed to be everyone's favourite place. because, i met jia ching, ernestine & even one of my ENT consultants with his family. adelaide, IS quite small. haha..

after that we helped jebbs pack up, and move her stuffs to the village.. while chris brought the rest to ikea to get some stuffs. thks to uncle mike & aunty chiew har for lending us the "big yellow" church van :) thks sooo much! felt bad cos we took it for such a long time. but anyway, all in all a productive day..

missed dinner with the lifegroup cos by the time we got bck, it was late. supposed to join them and the juniors for symphony under the stars (refer to last Feb's post, lazy to link). but after my quick dinner (cos i was soooo hungry), i felt queasy and felt unwell. so i took a nap.. from 8pm until now. so why did i wake up? ahh, i realize my contacts are still on!!! bleh~

so now that i've removed them.. i'm somewhat awake. haha.. feeling lots better now though :) naps rocK!

hm, at 1 am in the middle of the night/morning.. your mind tends to wander. thinking about stuffs. i find myself flabbergasted at the fact that when you do so much, but yet. the credit goes to other ppl. you go all the way to get something done, but it's often ignored. as if it was something that you should have done anyway. it irks me to the core, when ppl are indifferent, apathetic towards you (me, whatever). ahhh..!!!

but Jon Walker (writer of PDL's devotional and Grace Creates) reminds me through the devotional that we should Cooperate with a Smile. fuh~ that's a tough one. not that i'm nice to get something in return.. i'm what i am because God's grace has given me the choice to be. but i guess it gets tiring sometimes. and you just need some encouragement, to make it all worth it? Jon says, do it as unto God. what you do unto Him never goes unrecognised.

stay focused christine. stay focused!

i am no longer wise :(

as of today, i have officially removed ALL of my wisdom teeth. hence, not so wise anymore. hahaha.. had 2 removed 2 years ago, and the other 2 today.

twas a traumatic experience.. but this time around, i'm "wiser" (despite only having 2 left) because i came equipped with my iPod! to silence the sound of drilling. wooHoo~ i also maximised the use of local anaesthetic. the slightest pressure, i gave a grimace and ouch-ed, and the dentist would give me another shot of LA. hahaha..

dentists are super nice people. maybe it's a good "defense" mechanism that they developed over the years as a result of people detesting and fearing them. i laughed at the thought of it! it's important to have confidence in your treating doctor. it's important for the doctor to convey that very "message" to his/her patients. my dentists were able to give that very confidence. nice and skillful people they are.

being a medical student has its perks ;) i got a 20% discount. yes!~ although the pain still lingers a bit, but it's bearable.

thank You Lord that the whole experience was not painful. and Your guidance on the surgeon's hands :)

just wanna share this beautiful song which speaks of His finished work, with all of you..

I See Grace
New Creation Church 2007

Jesus my help, I call on Your name
I cast my cares on You
Jesus my hope, my tower of strength
My faith is found in You

Bearer of sin, afflicted and tried
You paid redemption's price
Bearing my curse, You've set me on high
Your death has brought me life

I see You pierced, wounded for me
When I look to the cross I see

I see grace, sealed by Your sacrifice
I see love, reaching for me
Precious blood, washes and sanctifies
Healing flows, setting me free
I see grace.

Love is...

can you complete the above sentence for me so I know what you think? :) i'd really appreciate it!
(u can leave it on the tagboard too, cos i think u need to have a google acct to leave comments.)

thks!

with christmas arnd the corner, the word "love" keeps coming to mind. this 4 letter word (a nice one at that) never fails to amaze me. how sad life would be without it. i'll devote my next post on Love, before that just want to know what your thoughts are.

p/s: HK trip will just have to be another day. haha..

p.p/s: i bet everyone's busy doing there last minute christmas shopping right now! :) just don't forget, to take a moment to think, and ponder on what christmas is really all about... Blessed Christmas everyone :D

Enchanted :)

thks for your concern peeps :) i'm ok already... it was a sudden outburst.



i watched this with my family last night. a very typical fairytale, happily ever after kinda movie. i give it A+++ haha.. because i'm an idealist. still believe that life can be full of happiness contrary to Queen Narissa's belief. i like Giselle's simple and naive character that was indeed enchanting. true love's kiss :) every girl's dream. Disney has not lost its fairytale princess-y movie magic. spectacular. reminds me of my childhood dreams of a prince to sweep me off my feet. hahaha! any day, an idealist. never a realist.

when night comes... what do you see?

this question was posted in max lucado's recent devotional - following the star.

so.. stars or darkness?
hope or hopelessness?

more often than not.. i choose the latter. sad to say.

i fail to realize that God is greater than my circumstances.

now i choose to see the stars! just as the wise men did. even if it takes me 2 years (it was speculated the wise men took 2 years - from the time they saw the star, to the point of finding Jesus in a manger) to find the treasure. i will continue to put my hope in God! and i hope u will too :)