it was a long long journey 

dehydration

have u heard of anyone getting dehydrated from crying?
hmm, u might be looking at the first. me :-P it's been a
rough 3 days.. I'm still holding on.. God!!! HELP!!!!!!

of selectives, camps and retreats

so many things happened during selectives. haha.. i appear more "busy"
than during system's course. ooh.. where should i start? hehe.. i guess i
can start by saying i couldn't be more thankful for God's grace that has
brought me through such a crazily, eventfully packed month! haha.......

from Infectious Fs camps (and the dilemma that haunted me before that,
YA camp/FES camp? YA camp/FES camp? it was going on in my head
like a broken record) but it proved to be a great time.. it really got me
thinking of whether i've been living that INFECTIOUS life that got has
called me to live? (no i'm not some evil girl going around giving you
bacterial, viral, parasitic or fungal infections! :-P) while doing team
dynamics, it really hit me HARD that i have been rather self-centred.
i'm sorry God. hehe.. will change, will change. i'm glad eeleen & gary
went along, and eupui was there too! so it was really nice, getting to
know everyone better. not to mention the many new friends i met
(and they KNOW where MELAWATI is!!! yay!!!)

then came the committee retreat. the week before it was truly a
"stressful" period for me.. kept feeling defeated, condemned, 'you
can't do it' thoughts, HOW HOW HOW???? but God has a funny
sense of humour. no kidding!

it was the Sunday before retreat..

i walked into 10 am svc, sat alone (didn't really feel like socialising
at that point in time)..

praise & worship, as usual.. we were singing the last song. can't
really remember what it was cos i was busy complaining to God!
haha..

me: God!!!!! are u there???? what am i to do? what am i to say?
how do i plan?? WHAT TO DO???????????
God: silent

p&w ends. Pastor Ong comes up..

after some greetings and introduction..

Pastor Ong: Today's sermon is "What to do when you don't know
what to do!"
me: whoa.. God.. whoa..
God: so, do u still think i'm not listening or answering you? :-P

haha.. God has a great sense of humour eh?

repro end-of-course

haha!! despite the complaints:

1) remind lecturers that they HAVE lectures to teach
2) pls don't put PBLs & CSUs of ANOTHER system beforewe even finish this current system.
3) and for goodness sake!!!! print clearer pictures for OSPE!
(ref: wed june 14 2006 christine's blog)

i passed!! praise the Lord.. it's really His extra grace!! thank u Jesus! :D

Renal in 2 days...... wish me the best!

random thoughts/happenings over the weekend

1. i wake up & lie in bed for 2 hours before getting out of it
for 2 consecutive days

2. ding msges me and asks if zara or topshop is on sale?!!
the sms starts like this: hey christine, ding here, your
handsome friend...... :-O the rest is history..... >_<

3. i fell asleep a few times watching england & portugal play.

4. i supported portugal. chris protested. so did the mosquitoes.
they were happily feasting on my blood. and i protested by
not watching extra time.

5. portugal won!

6. brazil lost to france -_-" (while i was asleep) and hau chun
went shopping to mourn over their lost

7. i went to church looking like santa claus but acknowledged
as metro's top model. haha.. thks alwin for making my day :)

8. i finish studying anatomy, despite much distractions of being
a chaffeur, an EAR & a counsellor :D

9. my mango-peach-tea-with-sprite-and-cocktail concoction
for cell's outreach turned out well.. i think?? jack?? any comments
besides it tasted like sprite?! because it doesn't! :P

10. we played pictionary-charades-style and brian tried to
act out the object turban. it was hilarious.. first he showed a
crown like thingy on his head, then bangles, and a big fat tummy.
huh??????

11. chris is back from victory weekend. i miss him! (& he is still
mourning over england's lost)

12. why can't people STOP indulging in self-pity??? it's pathetic.

13. why can't people be consistent? if u really believe in something,
or u think highly of something/someone wouldn't you want to let
the whole world know??? hmm..

14. having said that, God really uses my daily wisdom to speak
to me 1 thess 5:14, it's like an arrow shot through my heart. ouch
God, that hurt-ed!

swimming & masjid jamek

decided to combine both of 'em (ha! kill 2 birds with one stone..
am i smart or am i smart?)

swimming was fun.. initially i was a bit reluctant.. i mean, i didn't
want to invite thoughts of.. "eeeeekss.. she's so fat!" going arnd in
the heads of my uni friends y'know. ok anyway.. we got a SILVER
for breast stroke relay.. whoopee~! sabena, me, yeeleng & steph
were in one team! only 3 secs behind.. right girls?? hehe.. but i think
i was a bit slow..

if u all know me well enough u'd know i'm not much of a sports
person.. so.. haha.. yea.. that explains it all right??? but i actually
really like swimming, did a lot of that during the hols! of course..
it's more convenient having an olympic sized pool just below where
i stay without any worries of bumping into anyone! :D except my
brothers.. but here in vista.. erm, gotta swim @ like 10 pm to avoid
"human traffic"!

since we're in the renal system right now.. we were sent to dialysis
centres to see how things work there etc. funny enough, when it's
our turn to go, we'll say "i have dialysis tmr laaa..." -_-" sounds
wrong. haha.. typical malaysian english right? always wanna use the
short cut! instead of "i have to go to the dialysis centre tmr".

anyway, the journey there was a hilarious one. quite "membengangkan"
also.. cos first of all, none of us know where it is! (being the first grp
as usual -_-") so we just now it's NEAR masjid jamek lrt. period!
n we happily boarded the lrt (which was when i found out, STAR LRT
is no longer STAR LRT but RAPID KL!! surprise surprise)

happily boarded the lrt!!! n then chun peng was like. eh, u know how
to go to jln hang lekiu ah? i looked at the map but couldn't find it...
uh-oh!!!!! when we arrived at masjid jamek, we looked at another map.
there was hang tuah, tun perak, but NO HANG LEKIU!!! panicked a bit..
then we start asking around for directions. those pakciks working at the
lrt station have NO IDEA. n the kakak who sells kuihs just pointed
somewhere behind.. n burger king workers says it's behind too! -_-"

can u imagine, 8 of us.. trudging along masjid jamek.. not knowing where
to go exactly. hmm.. quite a sight.. especially when we cross ROADS!!!!
chun peng!! u've gotta look at the TRAFFIC LIGHT! :-P me & anu were
always behind.. hence always "almost" being "knocked down" by
accelerating vehicles. oh n did i mention it was drizzling too?!! *splash*

finally, i said, there's gotta be a phone number somewhere.. n so we called.
lo & behold, we were just one street away from it. happily again we
walked there and saw the LANDMARK! *eyes sparkling* JIN HO building.
the nurse said the dialysis centre is beside it. so we crossed yet another
road.. thinking we've arrived. and guess what!!!! the building was actually
right behind US. we didn't have to cross that road..

but the whole session there was fun. cos the patients there are special.
very motivated.. they can hook themselves on to the machine n take it
off themselves. they interact with each other & it's like one happy
family.. (except i guess, being on dialysis isn't exactly something to be
happy about) but what i admired most is.. they made the best out of
their situation.. and they don't dwell in self pity.. but are determined
to live that precious God-given life.. YAY!

more pictures

hee.. just thought i'd liven things up a bit instead of words,
words & words.. :D

coming up posts
1. imu swimming competition
2. the trip to masjid jamek dialysis centre

which i will write about when i have time! hahaha...

X-CAVATE-D!!!!!!!  

me and chris!! :D 

imuball2006 :-) (a bit delayed) 

sunset :D 

the before-exam-always-eating-and-sleeping syndrome (BEAES Syndrome in short)

it has gone from bad to worse. haha.. with the ultimate manifestation last saturday. i seriously suspect my repro notes suddenly decide to emit some sort of sleeping gas. i tell u. each time i picked it up, no matter whether i was lying down, sitting on the couch, on the chair or on the floor i'd just drift to a snooze. n it's not a SHORT one. average of 1.5 hrs. -_-" on saturday!! so in total i probably slept abt 16 hrs out of the meagle 24 hrs i had! when i had only 4 more days to study. thank God sunday monday & Tuesday wasn't like that.

it was BIZZARE.. really BIZZARE.. which resulted in me being very very angry with myself for being such a PIG! (i can just hear jack snickering right now -_-") but i really am.. have i mentioned before how much i can eat?? oh yeah.. haha.. go visit makanclub.blogspot.com to see how many other gobblers there are (at least i'm not alone.. teeheehee)

oh well, now that exams over.. i seem to even have more things to do! (and everyone says.. why am i not surprised?) i know i know.. but i'm already being a very good girl by taking a deep breath, swallow, and say no to church dance ministry, piano, upcoming christmas production & my batch's convo mag *sobs* it wasn't easy. but God says let go. n i let go..

now i can concentrate on CF & campus ministry. hmm, but i just wish that i had more encouragement & support from my parents.. i did not enrol in medical school just to study, but i really want to serve God and the people around me every way i can. i think God has proven to be faithful.. that despite my busy schedule, He gives me extra grace & favour to get decent grades.. i truly owe it all to Him.. it's not me. but i thank Him that He blessed me with the ability to study..

upcoming events on my calendar? (chronologically)
1. malaysian studies "truly malaysian - food fair & cultural show"
- praise the Lord, i managed to choreograph the chinese dance in
one night
2. metro's parents day celebration dinner fashion show this
weekend..
3. imucup (cheerleading have to start choreographing already!!)
- oh n i'm miss scorekeeper ;-) so ahem.. all batches.. i keep track
of your scores.. u "sek jou la" :-P
4. preparation for cf committee retreat (God give me the grace to
lead)
5. renal exam (7/7/2006)
6. planning a mission trip to hulu perak's orang asli settlement
with Prof Paul Chen (hopefully i can go too!)

really need your prayers.. other prayer items:
1) selectives (hope i get a good one - preferably with more free
time so that i can catch up on my studies)

2) PMS. i don't know where to go.. i'm torn............
** btw, PMS stands for partner medical school.. i don't know how
many times i have to explain to my mom what it stands for haha..

oh.. n did i tell u?? i'm on a MAGGI PHOBIA right now. YES LI YEEN I AM!!!!! haha... after the terrible diarrhoea i had that day.. i promise myself not to torture my body like that anymore (for a month) good for my hair also.. later botak :-S

something about tunnels

Maybe you could use this today.. The darkness is only for a season.
It's not like you're stuck on the other side of the moon! It's just a
tunnel, here's what's GREAT about tunnels!

1) They may be dark but they're just for a little while
2) And if you keep going, you WILL come out on the other side :)
*phew*
3) And when you do, you realize that you just took the shortest,
quickest means of dealing with a mountain in your way.

- John Fischer, Daily Devotional Purpose Driven Life

WOW..

i'm going through a tunnel right now. (i guess it includes blogging
2 posts in one night-a package thing) which is a rather complicated
one. it's windy, and long, and dark, and gloomy, and i can't wait
to reach the other side of this seemingly never ending tunnel..
thank You Lord for holding my hands as i walk through this :)
i know i'm not alone.

i'm sorry baby for my bad moods lately.. thank you for being
there.. and for being patient with me. love ya ;-)

end of course assessment

repro's over. thank God!

assessment? (as in i literally wrote these - in a nicer
way, on the feedback form)

1) remind lecturers that they HAVE lectures to teach
2) pls don't put PBLs & CSUs of ANOTHER system before
we even finish this current system.
3) and for goodness sake!!!! print clearer pictures for OSPE!

sincerely,
not me (anonymous sounds so...)

at a glance

life has been reduced to nothing more than a routine.
i walk in & out with a smile plastered (*nb i said plastered)
on my face.
emotionless. (or maybe just too much emotions that it's
not quantifiable)

i know God is there,
i know where my identity lies in Him,
i know i know i know.

but what seems to be missing?

last sunday, i walked into church, refusing to worship, listen,
i just wanted to be a spectator. but NO. God did not allow that.
haha.. i'm glad He didn't. how appropriate.. His words were..
we call it rhema.

soul-winning annointing, how's that?

i got my priorities and perspectives all wrong..

passion for people. ha! sounds noble right.. i thought so too ;-P
but i guess i was wrong AGAIN! passion for Jesus first. that makes
all the difference.

are u afraid of rejection? i am.. i don't dare to ask, for fear of
rejection.. n then i "complain" i get tired.. so what is it that i'm
missing??? tired cause.... i'm not making it my LIFESTYLE..

revelation-ary.. that doesn't mean that i'm all hyped-up
& happy.. but yea, things are getting better.. life isn't always
easy, but i'm glad i have Jesus to bring me through it all :D