at a glance

life has been reduced to nothing more than a routine.
i walk in & out with a smile plastered (*nb i said plastered)
on my face.
emotionless. (or maybe just too much emotions that it's
not quantifiable)

i know God is there,
i know where my identity lies in Him,
i know i know i know.

but what seems to be missing?

last sunday, i walked into church, refusing to worship, listen,
i just wanted to be a spectator. but NO. God did not allow that.
haha.. i'm glad He didn't. how appropriate.. His words were..
we call it rhema.

soul-winning annointing, how's that?

i got my priorities and perspectives all wrong..

passion for people. ha! sounds noble right.. i thought so too ;-P
but i guess i was wrong AGAIN! passion for Jesus first. that makes
all the difference.

are u afraid of rejection? i am.. i don't dare to ask, for fear of
rejection.. n then i "complain" i get tired.. so what is it that i'm
missing??? tired cause.... i'm not making it my LIFESTYLE..

revelation-ary.. that doesn't mean that i'm all hyped-up
& happy.. but yea, things are getting better.. life isn't always
easy, but i'm glad i have Jesus to bring me through it all :D