of selectives, camps and retreats

so many things happened during selectives. haha.. i appear more "busy"
than during system's course. ooh.. where should i start? hehe.. i guess i
can start by saying i couldn't be more thankful for God's grace that has
brought me through such a crazily, eventfully packed month! haha.......

from Infectious Fs camps (and the dilemma that haunted me before that,
YA camp/FES camp? YA camp/FES camp? it was going on in my head
like a broken record) but it proved to be a great time.. it really got me
thinking of whether i've been living that INFECTIOUS life that got has
called me to live? (no i'm not some evil girl going around giving you
bacterial, viral, parasitic or fungal infections! :-P) while doing team
dynamics, it really hit me HARD that i have been rather self-centred.
i'm sorry God. hehe.. will change, will change. i'm glad eeleen & gary
went along, and eupui was there too! so it was really nice, getting to
know everyone better. not to mention the many new friends i met
(and they KNOW where MELAWATI is!!! yay!!!)

then came the committee retreat. the week before it was truly a
"stressful" period for me.. kept feeling defeated, condemned, 'you
can't do it' thoughts, HOW HOW HOW???? but God has a funny
sense of humour. no kidding!

it was the Sunday before retreat..

i walked into 10 am svc, sat alone (didn't really feel like socialising
at that point in time)..

praise & worship, as usual.. we were singing the last song. can't
really remember what it was cos i was busy complaining to God!
haha..

me: God!!!!! are u there???? what am i to do? what am i to say?
how do i plan?? WHAT TO DO???????????
God: silent

p&w ends. Pastor Ong comes up..

after some greetings and introduction..

Pastor Ong: Today's sermon is "What to do when you don't know
what to do!"
me: whoa.. God.. whoa..
God: so, do u still think i'm not listening or answering you? :-P

haha.. God has a great sense of humour eh?