it is well with my soul

one of the hymms that i really like! haha.. i love hymms actually, the words are very meaningful, the melody and the harmony is absolutely amazing!

and well, the song couldn't have expressed it better.. this was actually written by Horatio G. Spafford, 1873 and music by Philip P. Bliss, 1876. he wrote this in the midst of his financial crisis and after the death of his two daughters..

erm, my situation is not AS tragic, but having prof (insert name) as consultant rounds isn't the best thing u can imagine, in fact, it's worst than what u are already imagining (if u are, that is). i've resorted to saying i don't know to all his questions, and i think i almost hit the jackpot today! well by answering i don't know to a question that hasn't got an answer. it's a TRICK question. and so, having such a 'nightmare' in reality should make me study harder eh? but no.. i somehow can get pass page 2 of whatever i'm suppose to read and just go to dreamland! and "panicking" (which usually lasts for 15 minutes of my bus trip) the very next day..

but God has been absolutely amazing, in a sense that, well, he gave me EXTRA grace, and EXTRA favour.. he hasn't really 'blew his top' and things were quite calm in coronary care unit. he still do ask questions that no one can answer except himself, but that's alright. also thank God for my RMO Matt who's been so so nice! haha.. and i thank God for the chance to talk about God with him as well :)

speaking of favour.. we kinda had a mock osce with prof (insert name but different from the above) today. and the before and after picture was just 2 extremes!

before:
fidgeting, hands cold & clammy, can't even complete a full sentence in front of prof.

after:
hopping along the corridor, grinning from ear to ear.

why?

prof actually said i'm a good student, just have to work on my time factor (cos i took 9 minutes to do a respiratory examination -_-")

that's like the most encouraging thing i've heard for the past 5 wks! :) and i won't say it's because i did fantastically well, but indeed God's favour was upon me..

it really lifted my spirit because, when u're here long enough, reality begins to settle in, in terms of 'differences' in skin colour and nationality. it can be quite blatant at times.. and when u get asked spontaneous questions, even with your english proficiency, u realize that, hey, i don't really understand what he's saying.. and sometimes, u've just got to push on! and finally, i felt that, yes, something good is coming out of this, and i'm not the most 'unknowledgable' medical student on planet earth which i sometimes felt i was. cos there's so much to know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but all in all, being midweek.. it's good :) it is well with my soul! Amen :D