what a week!

hmm, actually i have nothing to write about, but just thought i needed an outlet to de-stress! heh~ it's been a crazy busy week. it's been a long time since i was that busy. but i remember coping better then. lack of practice now? maybe... i always thought i was more productive being busy, actually, i still think so now. but it's just not the same anymore... the very fact that it's not the same anymore, affected me heaps! and as i'm writing... here's what God reminded me of:

and He is a rewarder of those who earnestly seek Him.

Hebrews 11:6

once again, God speaks through my blog's Daily Wisdom!

i don't think i've been seeking God enough, instead, i brood over matters, use my "primitive" defense mechanisms of denial, projection, reaction formation, undoing, displacement to deal with circumstances instead of confronting the matter directly. these are all psychiatric jargons that i'm trying to master myself, at the same time, finding myself falling into most of the categories.

i want to go back to being a person of faith! i'm really quite tired of being tossed back and forth by the waves. i want to stand firm (Ephesians 4:14).

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1

instead i'm being such a worry-wart now..

If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Matthew 6:30-33

O me of little faith... and again, God reminds me to seek Him.

wow.. from not knowing what to write, to this. God, i've never denied your real-ness, your power, your love for me, but why is it that i still can't seem to trust you now, although you've brought me through it all before?

It says the rubber of faith meets the road of reality under hardship. It says the trueness of one’s belief in revealed in pain. Genuineness and character are unveiled in misfortune.
-Max Lucado

does my character say anything?

ok, now for some pictures..

so this is how church looks like on a Sunday morning..

but look at it now! Youth Alive Band!! a tad bit too loud for me, but the atmosphere? heaps good.

and the opening act by the new york street dancers, nubian gents.

aiyoyo, so tiny, but that's switchfoot! here in adelaide.. and paradise being the proud host of the concert.

switchfootttttt band!!! i'm amazed at what jerome (far left) can do! he is the ultimate multi-tasker.. he sings, plays the electric guitar, percussions and also the KEYS! whoaaaa....

AWESOME! aussie anot? :P aussie lah.. considering i'm not big on loud music, i must say, they were pretty good :) 100 decisions made. is that God or what?