domesticated? lazy? or just evasive?

i have come to realize that, whenever i get stressed up.. or when there are heaps of things for me to do (as in, essential and important things! like study or practice for osce at least), i don't do them.. but do housework instead eg. wash clothes, do the dishes.. cooK?! clean my room (although i don't know why i bother, cos no matter how many times i clean it, it's still in a mess within 5 mins) THAT or sleep/go online. i just won't study. can someone pls diagnose this weird (or peculiar in chuen's terms) disease that i have??

it's like, when i think of the amount of stuffs i have to do.. i suddenly become very tired, and sleepy.. but then i'd feel guilty if i sleep all the time.. so i start doing other stuffs instead.. not that it makes me feel any less guilty, but at least i am doing SOMETHING and not sleeping (as if sleeping IS the greater sin). so i still don't get any of the important stuffs done -_-" and if i feel guilty enough.. i'll pick up my notes to read.. hum dee dum.. hey, i feel like blogging! yeah, reading can wait.. blog blog blog (like now).. and oh, golly, i feel quite tired. i shall take a short (which is usually not very short. can go up to 4 hrs!! :-0) nap right now, cos i deserve it, i've had such a long day!

and so, i've been sleeping at 10pm almost every night for the past 2 weeks except weekends, when i somehow muster some extra energy to chat on msn/reply emails/blog.. surprise surprise keeps me up till abt 1-2 am! and despite sleeping at 10pm, i still wake up the same time (late) but somehow find time to cook breakfast + pack lunch BUT no time to iron my pants (so i end up wearing black slacks everyday or skirts that doesn't need pressing :P). i should probably just be a cook or something..

i have an OSCE tmr. and i just completely made a fool out of myself at preceptors session today :( prof ruffin asked us to take a history from the patient.. and when it came to my turn, it was risk factors.. and he was pointing to his symbicort inhaler + GTN spray. so.. i thought to myself, oh..! cardiac and respiratory risk factors.. but he actually meant risk factors for the patient for his peptic ulcer.. why oh why, the day before my exam..

oh well.. haha, but being my last day at renal. it definitely has been the best week yet! :D learned so much more in this week compared to the last 3 weeks combined..

praise the Lord for bringing me through medical home units. don't kn how i would've survived without God's strength! just one more hurdle -> osce! and we're through.. moving on to surgery!!

brrr, it's getting cold here.. i need more clothes.. shopping anyone? :D