ok! time for another update!!

haha. the title's so tacky -_-"

anyways, i've been contemplating if i shld just close down this blog and concentrate on my wordpress blog.. although technically they both serve different purposes, but yeah.. it's taking too much effort to maintain & keep both active!! what do you think readers? :)

can't believe i'm at the end of my 3rd week of 6th year. gosh, time FLIES!!!! without me even realizing it. it's been a busy busy busy 3 weeks. who says 6th year is free huh?! i've been coming bck past 6pm everyday (and that's considered early).. i'm not exactly complaining, because i am doing the elective of my choice - ENT! *woot* and it has been really good - in terms of experience and exposure.. not to mention daunting, because it is such a diverse specialty, and when i think my anatomy's pretty fair - well, think again christine. reading anatomy in books, and seeing it LIFE (3D) is so so so different. so vast. so much knowledge out there waiting for me to acquire. but it's a good kind of daunting - not i NEED to study because i want to pass my exams kind, but i want to study because i want to know. so it's cool that way!

like i mentioned in my previous post, chris has moved out. *sobs* no more walking 2 doors away to see him, no more dinners together, no more free room-to-room calls.. and although we're in the same hospital, we haven't even had chance to have lunch together cos i'm always in theatre :( before those in LDRs stone me, i know i shldn't complaint) it's just that, i guess it takes some getting used to la.. right? but am glad that he & rahul has found a place to stay, and are settling in nicely now. his place is just opposite CIBO's ok (btw, Cibo's serves only the BEST mochaccino & iced coffee imho). how unfair is that??!! haha.. and he's a stone's throw away from the shopping street. how unfair is that??!! (oh have i said that already??) :P

have started bible college!! :) the best part is, chris & i are doing together.. and our first module is Old Testament Survey which has been AWESOME! ps Greg rocks. haha.. the bible rocks! God rocks!! all these misconceptions abt the OT being impossible to understand is being proved wrong one by one.. interesting!! nothing close to being boring.

despite our busy schedule, we somehow managed to fit in a valentine's day celebration & catch a movie together. teehee.. in fact, we watched 2 movies since we got bck! Revolutionary Road & Slumdog Millionaire. *contented smile*

here's one of my favourite picture to end this post :D

random thoughts

"kind words, at the right time is far more valuable and uplifting than a thousand upsetting words."

"trust is something that is gained. not assumed."

these are the thoughts that were running through my mind today. and these thoughts were birthed out of personal experience.

Today...

I feel confused. I feel suffocated. I feel trapped.

Psalm 56:8, “You know how troubled I am; you have kept a record of my tears” (GNT).

Sometimes ashamed, wishing that I could be more "big-hearted". More "open minded". But it's just not that easy. 

Yet, the Bible says nothing in creation is hidden from God (Psalm 147:5). And that it doesn't surprise him. His love for me does not change. 

Because He knows, and He understands, I “Give all my worries and cares to God, for he cares about what happens to me” (1 Peter 5:7 NLT).

Amen.

(God knows what I'm going through, and He has prepared this devotional by Rick Warren for me to read.. Rick Warren is the author of Purpose Driven Life and also the one who prayed during President Obama's inauguration ceremony)

still having writer's block..

but decided to write something anyway, just because i feel like it! teehee...

i finally bought something!!! yes. what an achievement. haih, for the past one month that i've been home, i haven't done any shopping, AT ALL. well, minus the shoes that i bought for the 2 weddings in KL (well, i can't be wearing flip flops/sneakers with my dress can i? :P). and yesterday, everything went bck to normalcy. *phew* i was starting to get worried. like, it's in RM and i'm not buying anything??!! so i started off with a few printed tees (i'm doing this for you baby!!) from factory outlet and brands outlet. in case you think i'm cheapskate, they're actually nice ok! and cheap too. i like cheap. *beams*

and today, i bought a black pants from MNG *joy to the world plays in the background*. and it's the kind that i've been looking for. *happy sigh* best of all.. it's cheap too! hahaha..

went for service at new creation church, and am so blessed by the worship and the preaching. i'm glad to be fed this trip bck, especially with grace & revelation. so i'm officially physically and spiritually fat now. hahaha..

looking forward to my upcoming trip to SABAH & HONG KONG.. omigosh omigosh omigosh. can't wait :D

i'm gonna end this super random post with one of my favourite pictures...

writer's block

i've actually got lots to say! but i just don't know where to start... maybe i'll let pictures do the talking... soon.  stay tuned :)

goodbye 2008, hello 2009!

2008 passed so quickly! but it has been nothing less than AMAZING! and i believe 2009 will be even better.. :) i'm so excited. chris & i spent the first few hours of the new year talking and praying and committing the year ahead into God's hands :) last year, God gave us the word PROPEL, and indeed, in every area of our lives, He has propelled us to places we never thought possible. this year it's gotta be FAITH! with important decisions and changes in hand, we just want to trust and put our faith in the One who knows best, whose thoughts are higher than ours, whose plans are good and of peace :)

some of the decisions/changes in 2009:

1) deciding where to work.. to stay in adelaide? if so, which hospital? or to move interstate..

2) to actively consider the area of specialty that i want to go into, and work towards it..

3) starting part time bible school next yr! woohoO! i've been thinking about it all year..

4) would like to seriously take my baking to another level, and hopefully have more business eh? :) so if you have any parties, events and you need cakes/fingerfood.. look for me k? :)

5) chris will be moving out of the village *sobs* that's one thing that i'll have to get used to.

will add to the list as we go along :)

blessed new year everyone. praying that you'll have a fantastic God-filled, God-favoured year ahead :) *hugs*

Merry Christmas!!

wee :)

no, not wii. haha although the idea of getting one is tempting.

more on my holiday updates :P

my brother got me a belated birthday + be-early christmas gift. guess what it is????

yeahhh.. thomas sabo charm bracelet!!!!! teehee.. :) it's so pretty!!!!!! one more thing off my wish list. hehe.. i got a basic bracelet with a heart-shaped charm. can't wait to add more to my collection..

have been meeting up with my secondary school buddies.. and on one of our meets after lunch (mee hoon kueh!!! yeahhh), we (the girls) went to watch twilight.

omigosh, is edward (robert pattinson) the most charming and good looking vampire you've seen or what? see, i'm really not the type to go goo-goo-gaa-gaa over an actor. my last "fad" - koo tin lok, and before that christopher lee. they both ended at just - he's cute, ooh la la. but omigosh, this guy, his gaze - is electrifying. mysterious yet attractive. hahaha.. in case you think i'll get in trouble for swooning over him, aiyah don't worry, i told chris already la. hahaha.. it's just a momentary thing ok! :P

what else? hmm.. eating lots still. looks like my 1/4 portion plan is not working out like i plan to. but i've been swimming. yes. a little bit of basketball. and some table tennis. so yeah.. :)

since i've been bck, i've......

1) been eating non-stop.. not funny.

2) been gaining heaps of weight (of which i've vowed to start swimming daily, and eat 1/4 of my usual portion from now until christmas)

3) been the mosquitoes dream come true.. (*sigh* i'm spotty all over now. grrr.. i hate mozzies)

4) done NOTHING study related (woohOo that feels good to say)

5) done NO shopping (now this is PROBLEMATIC with a capital P! :( why laaaaaaaa....? i've been into MNG like in 3 different places and couldn't find anything although everything was so attractively cheap. i suspect it's because of reason 2. meh~)

6) experienced some massive "culture shock". i wonder whether it's always been like that, or it's only evident to me now because i've been away for a whole year? reading newspaper articles, encountering ppl, and looking at situations arnd me.. all this while, i've been adamant abt returning home to serve; i still am, except, to be realistic, it's going to be quite a challenge. so i've told my parents & chris that no matter what, even when i start working nxt time.. i will definitely come bck to malaysia at least once a year, in order to be regularly sensitized to the environment. heh.

7) seen my youngest niece for the first time, baby Elina. she is the sweetest thing ever.. :)

8) experienced God's grace, faithfulness and revelation in such an amazing way.. His planted some exciting desires and plans for the coming year for me, for us! :)

all in all, there's no place like home :)

verdict

i'm unofficially a DR now!!!!!!!!! Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!! My heart was beating irregularly irregular at a rate of approximately 150bpm all the way bck home from lunch, the moment i found out the results were released. hahahaha... YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it seems so surreal. i suppose i need a few days to digest the 3 letters - NGP... after all these years, just for this 3 precious letters. what do they mean????? non-graded pass. just that. whatever it is.. i PASSED!!!!!! God's grace indeed. thank You Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can't express how thankful i am to Him who has made all things possible. this year, as i have been telling everyone, has been such an eventful year. so saturated (in terms of commitment, and events, and experiences). but still, such an amazing year, filled with grace. without which, going through life (especially so this year) would not have been humanly possible. and i mean really, impossible. thank God for swot vac, although having been a gruelling 4 wks, has been an amazing time for me & chris to grow deeper in God, and a miraculously peaceful time (no stress, nothing). not because i was super confident in myself, but knowing that He's got my back.. and that I just have to do my best!

final exam as a medical student. i can't believe it! the journey has come this far. an amazing journey it has been, and will continue to be in the future :)

so 6th year, here i come :D

it's over!!!!!!!

yahoO!!! exams are over.. overall, it's been quite a challenging week. but i thank God for seeing me through it :) and before i knew it, we were in melbourne! (remind me not to buy 6 am flights anymore... they are insane!) so the first 2 days were pretty much spent resting because of our lack of rest and chris falling sick. but we made up on the last day.. covered as much territory as we could, and filled our tummies with melbourne goodies until we're satisfied to the brim. funny how we only had effectively a day to spend in melbourne, but it turned out to be one of our best trips ever! :)

this deserves a whole new paragraph altogether... wait for it. wait for it.............

WICKED WAS SOOOOOO AWESOME!!!!!! omigosh, who hasn't watched it??!! what are you waiting for? GO WATCH NOW!!!! it's extended till the 8th of feb 2009 :D

anyways, in 2 days time.. i'll be touching malaysian soil! well, technically, singapore soil first than malaysia. but haha.. who cares. you get my point!!! and i have to PACK PACK PACK!!! last year, i went bck the day after exams, and i was just frantically throwing random stuffs into my luggage, hoping i don't miss out on anything. now, a year later, not much has changed (despite leaving a week later!!!). don't understand. probably never will. hahaha..

this year has passed by so quickly it's unbelievable!!!!!!!!! all i can say to sum up the year is: grace. so busy. but grace has seen me through.

as for now, just have to wait till next week when i collect my results, then the real holiday starts~!!! bring it oN!!!!!!!!!!!!

the time has come...

finally, our 4 wks of swot vac has come to an end (and of taking deep breaths and giving standard replies of "nope, my exams are not over yet, because it hasn't even started!"). haha.. not that i'm complaining.. 4 wks is just nice. much needed. although, haha.. if it was any longer, i may go berserk :P

and this is it. i can almost see the finish line. all 5 yrs of medical studies, with this BIG exam being the last lap. i'm going to sprint. no looking to the left or right. only focusing on the prize, thoughts on how God has brought me through time and again, lap after lap.

this year especially has been such an eventful year. you must be thinking, why am i writing this on the day before my exams??!! go study la!! but yeah, this will serve as a mark. that when i look back a few years down the road. i'll remember. remember His faithfulness. remember how far He has brought me. and that i commit this exam, into His hands, once again.

well. keep me in your prayers! and to all my fellow batchmates. all the best!

Lifted Me High Again

Listening to Lifted Me High Again, from the album For This Cause by Hillsong (yes, ancient) brings me bck to my JC days, when I used to attend City Harvest. Can vividly remember the atmosphere, the trumpet players (distinctly!), and of course, am then reminded of how God brought me through my 'A' Level days. It was a true demonstration of "impossible is nothing". Exactly what I need to know, cos at this very moment, I'm not as productive as I would've liked myself to be.. Cos for the past 4 hours, I've only covered Asthma. The good thing is. I'm still not stressed :P because He has just lifted me high again :)

more cupcake pictures

sweet & rosy was what i had in mind while making this batch :) and i think they turned out picture perfect!!

[vanilla cupcakes with buttercream frosting; banana cupcakes with chocolate fudge frosting]

2 wks into swot vac

my titles are getting a bit boring, even i had to stiffle a yawn as i wrote it :P

but haiyah, my brain juice (creative or not) is all recruited to absorb any form of medical knowledge i can lah. so if i forget names, birthdays & other things, forgive me k? i'll bounce bck to normal memory on Nov 29th :P hehe..

should be sleeping now, but just had a bowl of maggi (my comfort food!!!) because my empty stomach was complaining aloud - like seriously aLOUD. and also partly because, i needed a break from all the studying.

really wanna thank God for the past 2 weeks, although it's been wake-eat-devotion-study-sleep cycle throughout, there wasn't a single moment where i felt stressed, (bored maybe, but not stressed) at all. and i pray it will stay this way for the next 2 weeks - especially as i start paying more attention to practicing & brushing up on my clinical skills.

God I want to pass.... and like Joshua, i'm gonna hold my spear up until the battle is won! :D

ok, goodnight peeps~!