flowers from my darling! :-D

pardon the.. erm, temporary change

hey! someone messed with my blog.. was really pissed!!! hee, anyway, while i look for
a new skin (which is abt time anyway) pls bear with this.. :D

all the best to P1/04 for exams this wk!

have fun M2/04 & M2/05s we have another mth of sheer bliss :D woo hooo....

n the rest! have fun!! :D

i can't believe i'm saying this, but.. i MISS university! hehehe.. can't wait,
when it starts nxt mth! :)

HOHOHO!!!

anyway.. church today was.. entertaining!!! yeP!

we had Ps Nicholas Choo.. heard of him? anyway, he's ONE COOL GUY! i tell you,
ONE COOL GUY.

he talked abt the 7 UPs of LIFE today.

1. WAKE UP! The Right Start..
Ps 118:24 This is the day that the Lord has made! I will REJOICE & be GLAD in it.
& of course SHOW that u're glad la. a frown doesn't say that.

2. DRESS UP! The Right Protection..
1 Sam 16:7b For man looks on the outward appearance but God looks at the heart.
Prov 4:23 Above all else, GUARD ur heart, for out of it flows the wellspring of life
(p/s: LUSTS doesn't LAST!)

3. SHUT UP! The Right Choice..
sometimes it's just better not to say anything
Prov 13:3 He who keeps his mouth, keeps his life, he who opens his lips wide, ruins
himself
** the power of LIFE & DEATH is in the TONGUE!
(remind me to tell u the story of 2 frogs)

4. STAND UP! The Right Stand..
Gal 6:9 But we should not lose heart in well-doing, for in due season we shall reap,
if we do not faint
Apostle Paul definitely stood up for his faith. Another person that i know of, who's
an appeton of boldness. Desmond! Amazing friend.

5. LOOK UP! The Right Attitude..
Phil 4:13 I can do ALL THINGS (not some, not a few, not a lot, but EVERYTHING)
through Christ who strengthens me.

6. REACH UP! The Right Challenge..
Heb 11:1 Faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things
unseen. (couldn't have been better said!)

7. LIFT UP! The Right Partner..
Phil 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in ANYTHING & EVERYTHING, by prayer
& supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.
* obviously the Right Partner is JESUS. this partnership will not make u lose
anything, but gain EVERYTHING!

along with this sermon, he had like magic tricks, & funny stories.. He was a real
blessing! pray that u're blessed by it too!

So there you have it. 7 UPs of LIFE.. :D

deja vu?

heyheyhey.. is it a great day or is it a great day? (it's a rhetoric qn btw, which does not require u to answer :P) hahaha!! ok ok.. i'm HIGH.

let's see.. well, actually, the day (sunday) didn't start of very well.. (i shall
not go into the detail of it) but yeah.. let's just put it this way.. had a
'disagreement' with mom in the morning before going to church.. which left me
being rudolph the red nose reindeer (yes, i cried) anyway.. haha.. ppl in church
must be wondering what the heck is wrong with me? getting sentimental after not
being in fgc after a yr? haha..

anyway. yup so i was in church.. my initially lively mood was dampened. so i went to
church.. forced a smile.. greeted ppl cordially. well things got better along the
way :) met uncle albert, aunty christine, wendy, qi en, max & others yup.. n they
were really nice & warm. hehe.. miss them! i just found out today! they now have
2 svces! i went @ 930 & the door was locked :-O i thought i was toooo late. hahaha.
anyway. yep, now 2nd svc starts @ 10 for bilingual.. worship brings bck a nostalgic
wave. haha.. this is where i learn most of my mandarin!! so there i was.. the
banana, singing chinese worship songs! some of which i even know by heart! hah! :P

DEJA VU:
n then came communion.. n then they sang this song. n i started crying.. n crying
n crying.. the song talks abt how i can face tmr because HE LIVES. all fear is
GONE. i've heard this song even before i could talk. n today.. it just touched me.
n God was just comforting me & say.. it's ok. it's ok. i've got everything in my
hands. do u think i don't care abt this family? why do u worry? n it just felt like i was cuddled in his arms.. n i just uttered the words thank you. i miss u.. then i was like huh? i miss God? even when he's arnd me 24/7? but yeah.. i realized. i do miss Him. i know He's arnd. but i haven't really spend time with Him. waiting on Him, seeking Him. it was just me talking.. not waiting for a reply. after communion,
things didn't seem wrong anymore. n even when i came bck home. mom was OK. God is good!

so why do i say deja vu? haha.. abt 2 yrs ago, i was in the exact same seat, in the
same church, partaking of the communion, crying my eyes out again. over someone. whom
i was holding like a whole lot of grudge. tried to let go but couldn't.. n yes! God once again.. helped me to forgive. (was a painful rebuke) hey, now we're good friends never thought it would be possible! :) amazing.. haha..

so yeah! if u don't know this Jesus i know.. TRY HIM. ...taste & see that the Lord
is good.. because He is good indeed.. (and everyone who agrees say AMEN!)

... 

Ageing

TOP TEN REASONS TO BELIEVE YOU'RE GETTING OLD

You know you're getting old when:

1. you can't climb to the front of the car anymore (believe me, i've tried. n my mom
said. USE THE DOOR!)

2. shopping seems like a chore/gives u backaches, legaches and other aches after a few
hrs (i used to be able to walk arnd the shopping complex without any problem *sniff*)

3. you choose to drink hot chinese tea instead of cold tea.

4. you start to nag.

5. you say you NEED to have at least ONE rice meal a day if not your stomach feels
weird.

6. you feel you've wasted too much time whenever you sleep past 9 a.m.

7. your arms get flabby, u find yourself having a spare tyre, you're losing hair -_-"

8. you wish you were young again.

9. you have to think of what you had for lunch today.

10. you scrutinize the satay, biting off all the black bits saying it's carcinogenic.
you prohibit your brother from drinking anything blue, green or any other weird
colour because it's full of colouring & carcinogen. (maybe just maybe.... this is
because i'm a medical student, not because i'm old *phew*)

soo.. am i the only one who feels old arnd here? hmm...

serious meeting :-l 

pretty girls with pretty flowers :) 

I PASSED!!

i'm back in JB.. after.. 3 long mths! hehe.. n that really really means good news!!! cos it simply means i PASSED my killer exam!!! hip hip hurrah!! God is really good. i was just so amazed at His grace & mercy.. when i opened the envelope to have a glance at what i got. it was beyond my expectations. maybe u will all think.. "yeah yeah.. she always says that." n i will say that again.. because.. all this while it is truly God's grace that brought me through. prior to the exam.. i felt truly like i've not done enough. or no matter how much i study. it doesn't seem to retain. i didn't even want to pray that i'll pass, but i prayed for peace. n peace was what God gave during the exams. & i really thank Jesus for His favour and blessings over me.. I'm so privileged to be called His child.

i like how the song puts it.


Through It All

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Covered me with Your hands
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymm of love
for Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all.


right after collecting my results.. the CF committee headed to Selesa Hills for our bi-annual retreat to plan for the semester. it was not only a good time of fellowship and being real to one another.. i believe all of us came bck with something. everyone felt that tangible presence of God. n we believe we can do great things for God. we're prepared to face the trials & obstacles that may come in our way. but like in Joel 2 our theme worse. we will not be put to shame. Amen!

i have so much more to share about my experience. but.. writing them down would dilute he effect. would love to share them with all of You.

we even cooked up there! haha.. i'm glad everyone's still alive & kicking.. no news of diarrhoea/food poisoning.. i wouldn't want to be sued for that. hehe!!

i'll post some pictures soon! before u guys find my blog too wordy.. :D

Life after EXAMS

hmm.. why my post always sounds so sad. anyway.. let's start with a good news!

1. End of Semester 3 is OVER whoopee.. n the rest of M2/04 cheers with me *giggle*
2. Rei Ka & Li Yeen just turned 21. YAY!! welcome to the 21-ers club ;-)
3. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! *clap clap* the new yr's finally here for me.. 13/1/2006
marks the date of my freedom..

anyway.. everything was like happening; know what i mean? exams over.. everyone happy happy going places.. eating like a glutton. goodness gracious! with all the hype! i had even less sleep than when i was studying for exams.. i guess that explains my mood for the past 2 days. i highly suspect i'm having this condition called FUNCTIONAL BIPOLAR DISORDER. cheem ler.. it's from House M.D. (cool series by the way, shld check it out) i put it as functional because i'm pretty certain there's no organic cause to it. haha!!

i'm not in VIVA! praise the Lord!! n my actual results will be out on friday (which is tmr) talk abt fast! just had my last paper on friday..

let me tell u how my new yr was.. after dinner.. abt 8 pm. i was STUDYING! with a huge pile of notes in the study room.. n then time passed so quickly it was 1155. sad enough not in klcc this yr to watch fireworks so i decided to watch it on TV.

so yeah.. was like sitting in front of the tv anticipating the fireworks (on screen) but better than nothing right?? then in comes a phone call.. so i got all excited thinking it'll be my first new yr's wish! it was li yeen.. so i picked up the phone
"hello?" n li yeen in her usual chirpy voice said.. ehhhhh... can i ask u some respi questions??? -_-" <- this was my exact response.. n i mumbled a yes.. of course. hahaha.. ok so it went on abt ventilation & perfusion then i forgot the other qn. anyway.. yeah. by the time i answered the qns.. yup.. *bam bang bam bam bang bang* there goes all the fireworks. n yup i missed it. then i said.. ehh.. li yeen, happy new yr! haha.. she's like. ha. new yr d.. oh oh.. k happy new yr.. n hangs up. & calls jing. hahaha.. but it was quite funny. anyway, watching it on tv wouldn't be any good..

so since i didn't get to write down my new yr's resolution then. i did it in my head.. but i did allot some time to pray on new yr's day for God's direction & vision for me. it was really good..

went to bkt tinggi yesterdaY!! well.. didnt change much (if at all) from the last time i went there.. well the only change is. U HAVE TO PAY NOW!!! haha.. but i think
we all had fun.. taking pictures like crazy.. haha.. i bet we covered every inch of that place! french village & japanese tea garden. well.. up there.. we're supposed to be abt 3500 feet above sea level. but it was hardly cold. what's funny abt the trip was the getting there! haha.. hilarious if i might add. see.. i knew.. malaysian timing.. so i told everyone 830. lo & behold. it was only I who was there. waited a little while.. then li yeen comes.. n then lay in & se yin & evelyn. see.. girls are the punctual ones! haha.. anyway, while waiting. i even had time to have breakfast with chris, chun peng & gordon.. n so.. we left at 10 alas. 2 cars went for breakfast.. and the other 3 went to pick wen hao up!! VVIP of the day! hahaha..

so dai pai ok! it was so funny.. anyway, yeah.. we 're-united' at the PROJET before the TOLL and soon (or should i say finally) we're on our way to bkt tinggi..

when we were up there. hmm, there's wasn't much we could do actually. so after a couple of hours of massive photo taking sessions. we headed down to kg bkt tinggi to makan.. super hungry k.. it was abt 3+ then already..

after that, half went up to genting, the other half bck to KL. well.. initially i was suppose to stay too! (in genting i mean) but...... had a huge debate with God on going to CF or going to Genting. I finally decided to obey. not very willingly at first. but i definitely felt the peace.. n it was good to be bck in CF after exams robbed me of my time there for the past 2 wks.

guess what!!! i watched MEMOIRS of a GEISHA :D superb production! seriously.. although the story's a bit 'huh'? i mean, the values are a bit twisted. it's abt the life of a geisha, what do u expect right? hehe but anyway.. being with my honey.. yup. definitely a great day! it's kinda our last chance to 'pak-toh' before he goes bck to sabah.. won't be seeing him for a good one mth & one wk! *sobs sniff*

pray.. tmr my results will be out.. that i'll pass.. even if i don't God help me to accept it. & still give praise & glory to Your name! :)

goodnight peeps.. *konk*

mood swings back to GREAT

u know how mood swings work? can be due to PMS, or it just kinda HAPPENS! haha.. pity those ppl arnd me, especially my darling who has to put up with my hormone imbalances. hehe..

anyway, being in a week of ups & downs.. i'm finally back up again :D i guess it was a "monotonous" week where i had nothing much on except to study. haha.. yeah. *nerd* and it felt kinda weird (not being busy i mean) n it's in times like this when i feel like it's more difficult to "depend on God" because i "seem" to be able to handle it.. u know how ppl say we only praise God when things are going smoothly & blame God when it's not? i find it quite the opposite for my situation.

but i suppose at the end of the day, it's not abt how i feel. it's really abt coming to the centre of everything. Jesus :D

oh yeah, i got to watch harry porter on the day it opened! 23 of us went to midvalley
gsc! haha.. it's like an "IMU Outing".. To my surprise, the show was pretty good. i mean, not the usual predictable "chicken little" kinda thing (yes, i watched chicken little, IN A CINEMA, with my PARENTS & YOUNGER BROTHER!! sheesh.. thks to NEUMAN la!! practically dragged us there to watch) haha..


on friday.. i went to sch early for PBL right.. then i forgot that my library book's due!! ok so i go bck to my apt to get it.. but when i arrived at my apt. i can't remember what i went bck for!! can u imagine??? so i took a short nap hoping i'll remmeber in my dreams. then yeah chris reminded me, SNELL's. bingo. so in sleepy mode, i brought the book n went for lecture. after lecture shld return the book right?? but NO.. i walked bck all the way to my apartment and realize the BOOK is still in my hands! (no wonder my hand feels a bit numb) haha.. so i walk bck to uni.. up 3 flights of "escalator-converted-to-staircase" n returned the book. n guess what???? it started to RAIN! -_-" so i stayed in lib.. till it stopped. haha.. but it was a good day anyway. quite funny. got to eat sushi king after that *yum*

oh & today (saturday).. haha.. i was driving to ballet then i realized something blinking on my dashboard. couldn't figure out what the sign was so i called chris. n when he picked up the phone i felt like whacking myself cos it was actually the temperature sign -_-" anyway, it was blinking ma!! so i panicked la!! (shows how sua gu i am k) then i also dunno how to replace radiator water and open the bonnet and all that (now i do) so yeah.. gao dim that. then the car bonnet can't close pulak!! haha.. i think it's because of the accident, the alignment cacat. hehe..

n now.. i'm bck in melawati.. turning in for a good night's sleep :D *yawn* nites..

i've got myself a perm!

hehe.. day2 of permed hair. finally got it done.. but well.. it didn't turn out the way i wanted.. not exactly anyway. but it's ok. at least i don't look like i'm balding ;-) hehehe..

been in JB for the whole week! Home is definitely sweet!! :-) meeting up with buddies.. eating non-stop.. haha that's the kinda life i'm talking abt.. but.
hey gotta come bck to reality right? so yeah. tmr marks the end of the holiday..
*sobs*

didn't manage to study as much as i wanted to, but at least i did :D hehe..

but the internet back home is superb.. like whoa.. i can do so many things in
a short time compared to dial-up & in uni.. can get HPT!! ish....

anyway, after not blogging for quite some time.. yup.. a lot has been happening..
i mean really.. 2 mths! a lot of things can happen right??

the fact that i'm alive n standing today is already a miracle! haha.. it can be very stressful in med sch.. esp when u have to juggle other things as well.. God has been so gracious to me!

so many testimonies to share! i still remember.. it was right before respi exam.. everything just came crashing.. my car crashed, my family had some problems, n there just wasn't time to study.. n God miraculously brought me through.. it was definitely not MY effort.. cos i didn't get to finish studying and still passed.

the other thing is! i got an O2 mini :) hehe.. this is really amazing. i was at the AWA conference one night (Apostolic Women Arising) n felt God challenged me to give an offering of an amt i was hesitant to. i mean.. it was a lot of money! n i was kinda broke then. but i decided to obey n gave.. guess what! the very nxt day!!!
my parents came from kl.. n the moment i stepped into the car.. they asked if i wanted a pda??? (prior to this i asked for one but they said it's too expensive). i was puzzled at first.. n then i realize! God never shortchange us.. he gave me 50 folds of what i gave..

lastly music wk.. God just amazingly brings eveything through.. He taught me how to fully depend on Him.. i just let go. n He took over.. that's why.. i encourage all of u to come for this Monday's event.

Date: Nov7, 2005 (monday)
Time: 7pm
Venue: IMU's Auditorium

Don't miss the chance to catch Juwita Suwito & 1 a.m. in actioN! yeah..

signing off..
All glory to God..
Have a blessed weekend!!

combined celebratioN! 

my last day as a 20 year old

hmm.. 20 years on earth. seems like a long time eh? as i reflect back on my life..
i can never stop thanking God enough.. for the ups & downs i've been through.. for
the people He's brought into my life.. for His faithfulness towards me (even when
i was faithless & doubted Him). Indeed God is good all the time, and all the time God is good! (or as ben would put it, GiG ATT & ATT GiG!) haha..

right. so i'm bck in JB now for a wk, my last wk as a first yr medical student..
time flies!!! i can't believe i've managed to survive IMU for a year! hahaha..
amazing ain't it?? i'll be starting my 3rd semester nxt monday. n yeah, need all
the prayers i can get!! hehe.. n pls remind me to study! study! & study! thks ;)

but it'll be an exciting 21st yr ahead i believe!! i know what i want, n which
area of ministry God has placed in my heart.. i just hope i won't get distracted,
but be focused on my calling..

1) complete my medical studies (with excellent results)
2) dance for Jesus all the way! (CAMM)
3) IMU CF (the best way to reach out to the people in campus)
4) PKKII (reaching out to the children in the orphanage)
5) LifeGroup

i guess as u grow older, u assume more responsibilities (which can be a good thing) but at the same time.. ur memory gets poorer! haha.. i think i need to take gingko biloba supplements!! i left both my passports in KL!!!!! -_-" how bad can this get??
thank God foor aunties. hehe.. she'll bring one bck for me tmr. whoopee!!!

i wanna thank those who celebrated my birthday with me.. i'm indeed blessed with
all these ppl from all walks of my life.. thank you for ur prezzies as well!! love em all.. i'm sorry if i didn't manage to "jiu fu" all of u..

not forgetting.. here's wishing all the august babies a very happy & blessed birthday!!! namely, nick, ann jee, joanne, james, amy, cass, kexin, christopher, esther, li yuin, sarah, rhoda, low san, carol, joanna, aunty shirley...

oh n guess what! i got myself a new pair of specs ;) hehe.. pretty cool. it's green!!
haha.. funky eh? wanted to get this three-coloured thick plastic frame.. but, sadly they ran out of stock. saw it on the picture. haha.. anyway, i got it done in 10 mins. talk abt efficiency!

oh yes.. n i have a couple of books i aim to finish reading within the nxt 2 months (or at least start):
they are.. knowing what u believe, knowing why u believe, attitudes that attract success, choosing mr right, ECG made easy (i sure hope it's easy), Macleod's, Kumar & Clark!!! hahaha..

i think i've been cheong hei enough.. but hehe.. yeah. hope u guys don't fall asleep reading it :P signing off........ with lotsahugs, christine.

sheperd's pie.. sorry, i shld work on its presentation ;) 

incentives

just this wk, bck in jb. i visited our only "decent" shopping complex. realized it
became > decent. haha.. i would say it's neat! cool! not bad for JB! haha.. even
the washroom is renovated (the downside - 50cents per entry) anyway, here's my
observation.. when u have a nicer environment to work in, u'll naturally work harder.
i was rather "tickled" when i saw the cleaners being so enthusiastic abt cleaning the
washroom. i mean, really! they were wiping the place over & over again. verdict: it works for all.. in a nice place, good ambience, automatically, one is motivated to do better.. so it is impt to reward ppl accordingly, and not deprive ppl.. even the bible says so in proverbs!

just completed my 2 day attachment at puteri specialist hospital. it was a good learning experience!! i got to see almost eveything we learned in cvs! from myocardial infarct, cardiac failure, deep vein thrombosis, infective endocarditis, mitral stenosis, regurg.. etc etc.. man.. i'm so blessed! i remember praying before going for the attachment. n indeed God is good! Thks Dr Yap! :)

and of course.. it's always good to be home! ;) so many birthdays in JULY. lemme just wish the july babies a very happy birthday!! to.... Evelynn (dearest ex roomy), Kenn Foong, Vickie, Aaron, Shangari............